No thinspo, I don't even want to look.I don't know what happened guys. I really don't... I was doing just fine all day no cravings or anything, I was just more and more shaky. I got home from clothes shopping where I bought 2 pairs of size 0 pants for motivation. It was 4pm and time for my 1/2C Special K cereal with 1/4 cup light vanilla soy milk. I measured it out and sat down at the table. I've been looking forward to it all day (because yesterday it tasted like heaven) and I took a bite and it was bitter. So I tried again and again. I got pissed and grabbed a new bowl and spoon thinking that was what was wrong and poured ANOTHER bowl. Same thing so i dumped it. Totally pissed I poured a bowl of my roommates cinnamon toast cereal with skim milk and ate it. Then the binge began. I was anger eating. I had:
2 kashi blackberry bars
1/2 cup skim milk
1C cinnamon toast cereal
1 medium orange
1 tsp strawberry jam
1/2C salted almonds
some sips of chocolate sot milk
the rest of my vitabrownie
what. the. hell. Guys, I seriously have never ever binged like this before. I din't even want to add that shit up. Talk about a gigantic failure... I feel like a shithead right now. I'm so so stupid. Who gets angry and eats? I mean really... That was just so so incredibly stupid. I am more than sorry everyone, not just because I will gain weight, but because I let you down. I am so sorry. I broke my promise... I'm sorry...
I will stay with ABC, I won't let this stop me, no matter how bad I feel. But I do feel like complete shit right now.