Thursday, July 21, 2011
Slow and Steady & Thinspo
Wins the race. I am finding this to be more true than ever. I used to weigh 160lbs or 163 on a bad morning. So I started eating right and over 6months I lost 29lbs and weighed 131. I didn't even exercise all that much, I just cut out soda and fast food and made good healthy choices everyday with an occasional treat like a small frozen yogurt once in a while. When I got desperate to try and lose weight faster before college started I began to eat very little, about 100-500cals every day. And at first I was losing 1lb every day! But I soon discovered that it killed my metabolism. If I eat two apples more than I should I gain a pound. So after 2months of eating like this I weigh (surprise) 127. I gained 1.5lbs yesterday and all I ate was 100cals.
The reason I didn't update yesterday is because I passed out. I don't think I should continue this anymore. I passed out from 8pm until my alarm at 5:30am this morning. All eating like this has done for me is ruin my health, I'm losing my hair, shaking, passing out, and vomiting. I think I will try and go back to a low cal but sensible diet. I will tell you all what I eat everyday and how I'm doing. I will still meet my goals but I"m going to do it the "healthy" way. I will still upload thinspo everyday for inspiration and because I love the beauty of it.
I hope you do not feel I have betrayed you all or given up when it was hard. I just think if I keep this up I could get really hurt. I live alone so no one know if I passed out again or on a run. I'm sorry I can't be as strong as all you ana's but I will still support you in everything you do. I love you all and I'm sorry I'm not as strong.